The Letters

Dear Lost Things, I have lost quite a lot of things. I have lost objects, people, memories, and emotions. I have made myself lost in losing all these things. I have surrounded myself with lots of hate and sadness. I have not been the person I have wanted to be. I miss myself, but sometimes I really miss the things I lost. However, what I lost now has made me a better person, but what if I still had many of these things. How would my life be different? Right now, I want to join the Peace Corps, because I want see all what I take for grated. I am called ungrateful quite often, for I do not show my appreciation in the best way, but I am working on it. I want to learn how I can show my gratitude to the things I have now and the things I have lost. Right now, I want to begin a journey of volunteer work. I want to learn sacrifice and I want to understand the suffering. I want to understand the reason why people make the choices they do and the lifestyle that indulge themselves with. I want

Dear StarBucks, Well I am sitting with a good friend of mine, and we are studying. I am actually studying. You have made this a good place to study, Starbucks. I enjoy the environment. The lovely smell of coffee. My friend loves coffee. He knows exactly what he likes, however, he is never afraid to taste different flavors. I am enjoying his presence more lately. It is peaceful and not overwhelming. Dear Friend, Thank you for coming all the way downtown to go across town to study. It is the little things.

Dear my loved, I am sorry, we did not work out. I am sorry I became the person you did not want. I am sorry for my faults of mine. I am sorry I did not recognize them sooner. I wish I could change my actions.  My love, you deserve all the happiness in the world. I am sorry I could not bring that to you. I want to stop saying sorry. I know I always will be. I will be sorry for what I did not do to make this better. You will be happier, every step of the way. I just hope you remember our good times, not our bad. I hope you remember me as the girl you fell in love with not the girl, who made you fall out of love. I want you to be happy and I am sorry that my actions show it.   My love, you made me happy. You have such an amazing personality. You light up everyone in the room. You are funny. You are determined to find yourself and your happiness. You are confident. You are independent. You create such aspirations and you are not afraid to follow them. You are strong. You are brave. You ma

Dear Bucket List, Will you ever be completed? I don't even know where to begin. Maybe get into jazz music or travel to Africa. Everything cost so much money these days. I have to become creative. Maybe that should be on my list, "be more creative". I really need to write a how to book, but how do you "how to" when you do not know how to "how to".  I want to try something new this year. Like loving myself. I really need to start that. If there was easy solutions, I would love that. "How to do Life", maybe I'd actually read. I do not know. Read one book this year, I know such a big accomplishment. At least it is something. I'll come up with something, but maybe later. Later has come, I want to sky dive. I want to go hunting dressed in all camouflage. I want to travel to Ohio, maybe buy a house, just to open the door and say "Oh" "Hi-O" I want to scream really loudly off a mountain and see if I can hear my ec

Dear Wedding Day, Today, I guess have felt lonely. I do not have a special someone to cheer me up. However, one day I will. On my Wedding Day, I want it to be a dream. More like a dream come true. Life is full of hardship, I want to make this day remarkable. I want my best friend to be looking at me in some dress I am wearing. Maybe it is bright white or maybe it is vanilla, or maybe bright orange, who knows? I want my best friend to be my maid of honor and his best friend to be his best man. Maybe the best man proposes to the maid of honor. I want my day to be filled with love. But is it really my day? It is our day. My best friend and I legally committed to each other. Forever together. I want our colors to be simple but exotic. Maybe pastel purple and army green. I don't know quite yet. I want it to be outdoors, but no where windy. Knowing me the wind would blow me off my feet. I want the love of my life to be happy. I want him to be proud of the day we get married. Maybe we ar

Dear December 25th 2018,     Where do I begin? This day has been eventful. I mean, not like a lot happened. I opened presents from my parents as expected, but also I saw an important person in my life. However, that is all I did. I relaxed and enjoyed the day. I wonder what a lot of people are doing on this day. Are they wishing for the day to end? Are they excited for the gifts? What does this day mean to people? For me it means loving each moment, and remembering those who we may have forgotten. I believe Christmas time is show the spirit of love. Who do you love? Is there a certain person that makes you smile? I know I have many people that make me smile. Do they know it? Maybe not, but December 25th, you have treated me well.     Many days have been hard for me, but five days before the new year, I am blessed with a great day.